sinkwriter: 2006 Fish Creek walking path photo taken by Sinkwriter (Michael in thought)
sinkwriter ([personal profile] sinkwriter) wrote2013-04-04 01:19 pm

I miss bardsmaid

It seems like not a day goes by where I don't stop at some point and think, "I would love to show this to Susan!" or "I wonder what she'd think about this..." or "She would totally get into this [video, poem, story, article, whatever I come across that's interesting and marvelously clever]."

And then my heart gives a little squeeze of sorrow that I can't share these little moments, achievements, frustrations, interests, or whatever, with my friend.

It's not fair.

[identity profile] lostakasha.livejournal.com 2013-04-04 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, S... I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. ::::::::hugs:::::::::

[identity profile] sinkwriter.livejournal.com 2013-04-04 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I miss sharing and talking with you, too!

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?

*lots of hugs*

[identity profile] sinkwriter.livejournal.com 2013-04-04 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Also... because I forgot to say it before... thank you. *hugs some more*
leucocrystal: (tv | x-files : fox)

[personal profile] leucocrystal 2013-04-04 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I feel you, BB, I do. I've had the same feelings so many times recently. *hugs*

[identity profile] griva-x.livejournal.com 2013-04-05 04:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I couldn't agree more. I try not to think she is not among us any more...but I still remember smthg she said to me once...about an important thing to me....and it keeps ringing in my head every time I think of her. I miss her beautiful photos too and can't stop thinkign how is the house and the plants and the hens...

[identity profile] sinkwriter.livejournal.com 2013-04-07 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Z. *hugs back*

There were just so many things that we'd talk about, and not being able to do that anymore is so sad to me. And it's always a surprise to me, you know? I'll forget for a while, and then something will come up, an interesting article that resonates, or a book that sounds intriguing and totally up her alley, or just some random thing that I'd ordinarily send her way via email. And then I realize I can't send it and I'm sad all over again. To not be able to have that rich conversation anymore... it's such a loss.

I'm sorry you've been feeling that, too. *hugs again*

[identity profile] sinkwriter.livejournal.com 2013-04-07 06:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I wonder those things, too. It's just so sad and unexpected. I guess it's a good reminder not to take things (or most especially, people) for granted because they can so easily be here one day and gone the next and we can't do anything about it. But knowing that doesn't stop me from missing her and missing that lovely connection and friendship.
leucocrystal: (tv | x-files : lost boy)

[personal profile] leucocrystal 2013-04-08 08:29 am (UTC)(link)
To not be able to have that rich conversation anymore... it's such a loss.
It really is. Knowing I won't ever receive another thoughtful comment or wonderfully long e-mail from her again is such a sad thought, and seems somehow impossible.