I miss bardsmaid

[sinkwriter]

It seems like not a day goes by where I don't stop at some point and think, "I would love to show this to Susan!" or "I wonder what she'd think about this..." or "She would totally get into this [video, poem, story, article, whatever I come across that's interesting and marvelously clever]."

And then my heart gives a little squeeze of sorrow that I can't share these little moments, achievements, frustrations, interests, or whatever, with my friend.

It's not fair.

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[leucocrystal]

I feel you, BB, I do. I've had the same feelings so many times recently. *hugs*

[sinkwriter.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Z. *hugs back*

There were just so many things that we'd talk about, and not being able to do that anymore is so sad to me. And it's always a surprise to me, you know? I'll forget for a while, and then something will come up, an interesting article that resonates, or a book that sounds intriguing and totally up her alley, or just some random thing that I'd ordinarily send her way via email. And then I realize I can't send it and I'm sad all over again. To not be able to have that rich conversation anymore... it's such a loss.

I'm sorry you've been feeling that, too. *hugs again*

[leucocrystal]

To not be able to have that rich conversation anymore... it's such a loss.
It really is. Knowing I won't ever receive another thoughtful comment or wonderfully long e-mail from her again is such a sad thought, and seems somehow impossible.