Taking a new path
Apr. 30th, 2010 05:02 pm*trying not to hyperventilate*
I have just registered for a "Web Design and Development" course at the local college, in time for their Summer term. And I paid upfront, so there's no turning back. Not in my mind!
*gulp*
I've taken day-long courses through my former employers for various jaw-splittingly boring topics, but I haven't been in an actual school or had homework or taken tests in... sixteen years?!? Is that right?
*recalculates the math* Yep, graduated from college in May 1994.
It's so stupid, but I'm terrified.
On the other side of it, this course is a topic that actually interests me. I've always wanted to learn how to build a Web site. Plus, it's only one class; I'm not enrolling in the entire Digital Media and Design program. (Not yet, anyway.) But most importantly, I've been out of work for two years now *headdesk headdesk* and obviously what I've been doing has not been working, so I feel the need to take action in another way, update my skills, try something new, step out on that proverbial shaky branch and jump.
I don't know where this will lead, but I need to do something different. I need to be bold. I need to take chances.
May the Universe have mercy on me.
;)
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes... and leap!
~ "Defying Gravity," from the musical Wicked
I have just registered for a "Web Design and Development" course at the local college, in time for their Summer term. And I paid upfront, so there's no turning back. Not in my mind!
*gulp*
I've taken day-long courses through my former employers for various jaw-splittingly boring topics, but I haven't been in an actual school or had homework or taken tests in... sixteen years?!? Is that right?
*recalculates the math* Yep, graduated from college in May 1994.
It's so stupid, but I'm terrified.
On the other side of it, this course is a topic that actually interests me. I've always wanted to learn how to build a Web site. Plus, it's only one class; I'm not enrolling in the entire Digital Media and Design program. (Not yet, anyway.) But most importantly, I've been out of work for two years now *headdesk headdesk* and obviously what I've been doing has not been working, so I feel the need to take action in another way, update my skills, try something new, step out on that proverbial shaky branch and jump.
I don't know where this will lead, but I need to do something different. I need to be bold. I need to take chances.
May the Universe have mercy on me.
;)
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes... and leap!
~ "Defying Gravity," from the musical Wicked